There was a time when I played this game daily, I was always here. I played with and against everyone at some point... even the Europeans knew who I was. lol It seemed like there was days I just didn't log out all day.
I actually started the game and checked whether you were still on my friends list, because I haven't seen you on in ages. And yes, you are still on the list, but it seems we haven't been on at the same time in the past weeks/months.
And you are not the only one. There are other players on my friends list who have either quit or are not playing as actively as they used to. And this leads to a downward spiral. With pugging becoming less and less enjoyable, every active friend less is a reason less to log on. Sometimes it almost feels as if i only log on because of habit, because that's what I have done every day for the last year and because there are still some friends left who I do not want to let down. And then of course because I still like this game and I wish it improved so I could go and tell all my lost friends that STO is fun again and they could return.
When I bought my lifetime membership during headstart after only two days of playing the game, I did it because I did not want to be "forced" to play the game just because I had payed for the month, I wanted the liberty to take a break and come back later. One year later, I still have not taken such a break. The sad thing is that I keep thinking - more often every week - that maybe the time for a break has come.
Sometimes it almost feels as if i only log on because of habit...
Sometimes I can barely bring myself to play. I just log on, stare at my character screen, and then log straight back out again at the thought of either levelling another toon or putting up with the PvCrap.